songs & feelings ._.

*PS: Got a part editted @ 10:25, 30 May

Do you really want to hurt me?
Why are you doing this to me?

The stories regarding your other men
The stories regarding your behavior
I tried to ignore and pretend that I didn't hear but
The way you act when you are intoxicated
The way you smile at my friend
Change it, stop it
Even though, I tell you many times...

You say "I'm so sorry" only for that moment,
You say "I will change" only for that moment
My heart is pain. It hurts but I can't help but repeating

I did you wrong,
Your words were so sweet that I didn't realize you were playing me with your words everyday
Baby you, breaking my heart
Baby you, hurting my heart
I want to stop this
I know this is wrong
But I keep going back to you

Baby, you and I like a bad popular song
I'm crying inside but I force to smile like a clown

Yes!
My heart and body go astray
I am such a fool with no pride that
although I was decieved by love,
I wipe my tears & just go back to you knowing that this is wrong
The fact that I'm a toy that you played and threw away
Make my feelings unbearable
But why? Why? WHY? WHY!
Today I'm a clown that smiles in front of you again

I was wrong-2AM
Part of the lyrics,
I didn't write out the chorus repeatly XD...
It describes my feeling right now...
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I don't know why I'm lying to you again,
I'm sorry...
Maybe I'm afraid to let you know my feelings, what I think...
Cause' I got no rights...
To stop you doing this or that...

I like the way you are,
I also hate that's the way you are somehow...[You breaking my heart]
The way you act like when you're intoxicated...

I don't wanna faking with my smile anymore,
Actually that I'm crying inside...
I'm such a fool with no pride

*Editted part
I don't know whether you realise why I'm doing all this, have a feeling like this...
All this I've been doing may sounds foolish...
But that's my way.......................
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Even though I'm young,
Pain is still the same
Just because I don't know well the world
Doesn't mean I don't know pain

Why did you lie?
Saying it will be alright?
This broken heart,
how can it be easily heal?
How can I live without you, thats why I

I can't let you go even if I die,
How can I let you go?
If you're going to go, if you're going to leave, so fix my heart
So that I can live without any pain
If you don't do this,
I can't live at all,
I can't let you go even if I die

No matter how much you push me away
I will hold onto you until the very end
So that you can't go anywhere else

If you're really going to go,
So lie
Let's meet each other tomorrow
And so, let's smile when we see each other
And say you were joking about our break
Otherwise I,
I can't let you go even if I die

We spent so much time together
How can I live by myself now?
I can't do it,
I can't!

I can't let you go even if I die..
I really can't let you go...

Can't let you go even if I die - 2AM
Part of the lyrics,
I didn't write out the chorus repeatly XD...
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There came a crossing on the road,
If only there were sign to show me which direction I should go,
I live my life with no regret...
It hasn't caught up on me yet~

I wonder as you walk through the door
Are you gonna hurt me some more
Never took you for the kind
Who would play up on my mind

Tell me what are you looking for
I can't play your games anymore
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Songs that describe my feelings, my mood right now...

._.| let me yell once more

I'd knew you for so many years,
yet we still same school though not same class...
I don't know why you still didn't change your backstab & "missile" skills...
That's why I rather I trust a friend that I might just knew for months!
Listening to you, you just keep on backstabbing...

Somehow you still mad on my buddy on this,
Dude, if we'd misunderstood you, you should told us instead just being a volcano there, exploding & releasing your anger...
By doing so, we makes more misunderstanding, dumb.
If it isn't facts then just ignored it...
But you're not...
You chose to keep on angry on him & backstabbing him...

OR the truth is we didn't misunderstood you?
It's all the facts?
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I didn't realize that you've changed...
You were advising us to do good, don't said a bad words...
But what now?
You've being doing all those bads these days,
You P class, you blame on someone else that turned you bad...
You somemore advising us don't do homework, don't study...
COME ON? What's wrong with you?

I know I got no rights to judge you since that I'm neither that good like you were nor that bad like you ARE NOW...

& if you don't like her anymore or never at once...
Then why you start it?
She's innocent,
You said you hate her & sometimes you act like nothing happened...
You said someone is trying to snatch her off from you...
I felt I pity you...
But sometimes you don't like her at all...
I felt you're the jerk...

His fault or yours fault?
Who I gonna help?

Enough,
Come back before it's too late......
Am I gonna lose you?
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Once and once I swear to myself for not being such sensitive...
But once and once I broke my own promise...
I can't hold this feeling...
I can't stand for it too long...
I wanna stop but what can I do?
I got no rights...
How would I know what you think?
잘못했어?
나만 바라봐~!

EXAM AGAIN~!

Oh crap~
Folio haven't start..
Exam going to start..
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Human are just weird...

You were non-stop thinking of her...
You express how much you love her...
How the way you jealous when you saw she just talking with other boys..
But now, you said you're not love her anymore...
Hate her somemore...

You said that how you can't live without her a day,
Now once you got her, I greet you & see how happy you are...
Because you fulfilled your wish, you owns her...
Now you said living with her a day is like in hell for a minute...

You were sharing the emotions with her...
Every time you saw how happy she are, you smiled...
People thought that you're out of your mind~ What the hell you smile @?
Now you hate to hear her laughter, you felt like you wanna punch her right on her face...

You tell people that you love her, then you are...
Suddenly you tell people again that she's nothing to you...
You thought they're toys for entertaining you?
Things that you're finding when you felt loneliness?

I still remember this sentence...
爱成恨， 恨成仇...
Maybe it's true...

Funny? Don't you laugh 1st, maybe it's you actually, who knows?
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How bout' we said like this...
You getting it easier, so you don't really appreciate it...
Is it that you only know how to appreciate if you take years time to get it?
Or how long you've been fighting = How long it will last?

You guys could just changed 10 girlfriends in a year..
But somebody had to wait for years just for a person...
Some of them might really find their true love, but some aren't...
But they never regret for doing so...
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Just my point on how's my friends behave on it...

let me yell =(

THERE's WAY TOO MUCH THINGS HAPPENED ON ME IN JUST 2 DAYS...

Monday,
I knew it I would fail...
At least I gave it a try & let you know it...
Glad that you didn't ignore me & forget all those stuffs...
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Damm it,
Cameron you like to torture people that are not in a mood?
So many pupils at there have the kind of length like I does...
I know I guilty...but why you can't make it fair?
I felt that not just my hair...
You just straight ask me to see my parents...
After assembly I just gone back to class...until after school you didn't find me xD~

Anyway, I cut my hair...Happy?
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PJK
The floor just wet enough...
An hour ago, rains -_-|
I fell once, didn't got hurt~
BTW, All of us had almost fell down -_-|
Felt like playing basketball on ice skating place xD
Okay, there's nothing interesting...

NOW THIS IS WHAT I TRULY WANT TO SAY...
You freakin' maniac,
You thought that you shot your ball to me & somehow laughing and just blame on somebody else,
Am I such dumb to trust your idiotic words?
I know I can't proof it's you or who did it because I didn't saw it with my bare eyes...
You just lucky...
Next time, I saw it with my bare eyes...
I threw the ball towards you madly,
Dare you try again...
Don't think that I'm soft shits that are nice to bully...

You had fun?
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Tuesday,
I didn't realise that you're such a miser & having such good imaginations...

During assembly,
My bottle fell down by itself & hit yours bottle down too..
You stared at me~[Enough staring, maniac]

When it's Science time,
I'm going to Science Lab.,
You wanted the old scripts re-act isn't it?
You wanna play games? COME ON LET's PLAY THEN, DAMM IT..
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I might try again,
Don't felt that I would change my mind such easily...

Things still in my heart, my mind...

I didn't regret...

jusco maluri~ !! + my stupid emo post =X

Today,
I thought that I could join both sides...
First,
I went to Kenari Court there & go to Cempaka LRT Station~

When @ Jusco waiting for them,
Play arcade for awhile =p
Play that puck thing, drum & basketball
1st time play drum @@ (I'm sux on music =p)
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Saw a few primary school friends before going to PizzaHut...
Yoke hang & Syin kyin...
yoke hang, I could saw him every day...(lols)

& Syin kyin,
Yawn I so miss him....
So strong for now & his voice changed a lot...=p
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@ PizzaHut,
Ah gong paid RM20 for us.. o.O
Then we share the rest...(rm50)
Each person around RM7-8...

Yawn~ I ate most =X still abit full lols
Nigel didn't eat at all...
& He looks so moody~
Missing something? XD

Chit-chat...
Fun~
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Here we come, arcade~!
lols...
Played nothing else but 3 puck (o.O?)
Sounds nothing but it's fun when you playing...
Suddenly comes 3 instead of 1...

Ha~ teamed up with everybody except Jac lols ..
next time bah XD
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Then, Jack, Jaclyn & me go McD met Nigel eating @ THERE!
LOLS
We asked why you didn't eat @ PizzaHut but McD?
He answered: I don't eat pizzas except my mother cooks...
*Everybody speechless*
If you don't want to eat @ PIzzaHut...
Mention bout' it please, don't just be silent around...-_-|
Do you possesed by the Ice Cube?
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Without handphone is really hard to live XD
If didn't follow Hui Xin~ HA~!
I might need to find them all over the Jusco...
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By the way, I not wanted to put "paper planes" to you guys...
Since you all had watched the movie & having lunch...
If I go there just waste of time & golds xD
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I don't know why I'm suddenly felt so hopeless...
I also don't know why I'm so moody...
& I never been such moody, you really drivin' me crazy...

I don't know whether you like me or him...
Or nobody...

By the way,
Thanks to Den for consoling me =p

Girls like ones who will to listen to them...
Listen to them talk bout' her secrets...
Instead of loving someones who makes dumb entertaining jokes to cheer her up...

If it does like you said so...that will be great =p
But what I want to tell is...
Not all girls like someone who willing to listen to them, care them...
I mean don't comparing me & him...
Everyone's point is different like I always say so...

Now I might realize that she willing to tell you all her secrets that nobody else knows mean she loves you, wants your attention on her, IDIOT Adrian...

But I hope you know that how much I love you,
The way I care you, didn't you realize?

--*Editted*---
I could wait,
Since I had been waiting for someone before...
Why I couldn't wait for you?

I think I know what's more deeply of the meaning of love...
So I know how I gonna fight for it...
Instead of doing things secretly...

I hope that you don't ignore/hiding miles away from me when you know it...
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By the way,
Den, you seems so successful =X
So...
You zip I zip XD

Hair HAIR~!!!

Grrr...New penyelia petang is ownage still...
& My class teacher, Farihah....
Do we owe you money? DO YOU NEED TO TAKE OVER Cameron's place to check our hair 1st before he does? You just a Science & form teacher...Wake up please~

Yesterday,
Cameron & penyelia petang tell us about the rules ...
School badge background colour must YELLOW...WHITE is for Morning Session...(damm it...)

Bout' the hair...
Boys-Front: cannot over half or your forehead...-_-|
Sideburn: Cannot over half of your ears...(rofl)
Back: cannot touch the collar~

COME ON~ Why Malaysia still needs such rules...
Look @ USA, UK or any others Western country...
Casual wear to school, no uniforms...
& doesn't care your hair

Fine, don't talk Western countries....
We talk ASIA...
Japan & Korea...
Doesn't care your hair either!!!
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Still thinking how to get my ass save from hair-checking @ tomorrow @@
Cameron told the prefects that they can swept their hair over the side...(not side-swept bang like mine do >.>)...
Fauxhawk not allowed too @@

Prefect can do so...THEN STUDENT IS NOT HUMAN?! MUST MONK STYLE?!