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don't know how to react, what to do..

mind just gone blank, i wished to talk to u..

but my mind reminds me, things weren't the same anymore..

how pathetic..

never expected such thing could happen..

idk..

i think i nid to find something to focus on..SMM tournament, studies..

if i just keep lingering around, it couldnt change much either..

sigh

sometimes when i just wanna express myself a little more, seems like it venture too far, even it wasnt meant to be like that, they somehow sense something fishy ._.

i just wanna find someone to talk, is that such an odd thing? fine..

just

wanna

punch them right on the face

for

those

who

talk nonsense crap

I'm not in the right mood to talk, how long you'd know me, you still can't get it?

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you're still my bro

don't think too much

i'm cool with it

Persistent?

don't have much free time to blog nowadays

form 4 ain't no joke, barely keeping up myself on the track ._.

I kinda afraid that I would being drop down to 4s3 because I might not attending for the exams :O

going to Korea+HK soon :X

i wanna share my trip @ china bla bla..but meh..really busy

recently, i even applied some part-time job, cashier @ Internet cafe, easy job. Play & get pay lol. and also might have some time for me to do my school stuff lol, hopefully the time shifts are flexible & they accept me !!

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recently, there's really too much thing happened around me

no matter in life or in game, it just things really frustrating me, but I didn't give up

PERSISTENT

something that I have? ha

What I believe is

since you have started it, then make it till the end whether it's going to be failed or succeeded. It's pure waste of time & it's stupid to give up half way, you never know if there's a turning point or not, don't be despair.

the guys don't even believe that we had won 6 games in a row, 2-3 of the games, they were forcing me to concede but I rejected again & again, after 10-20minutes, opponent conceded, I'm glad for that.

Sometimes when being persistent don't even pay off at all, it really makes me feel desperate & emo ._.

Why is it so hard just to buy a present ._.

I'd get into some "weird" gift shop, it's really awkward, label your shop properly la deng, there's so many kids around, aneh

I'd roamed 6-7 CC, none of them have colour-printing service, wth

then I realized just need to save the photo on pendrive bla bla

Sunday, went to KL Sentral, it's closed, hell, so I only able to give her after her birthday is over =_=

Monday, went again, rules changed, unable to put photos of celebrities on the new TnG photocard liao ._.

then I just rushed to buy a DOMO ._.

eh, please appreciate the domo leh, lol, susahnya :9

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Rejecting won't be that hurtful compare to being shun, please understand that, don't be afraid or being surprised ._.!

That feeling is really awkward & depressing.

what I wished for, it will always come true, but in an opposite way...

just few more weeks to go..

but it doesn't matter anymore...

just wait again

Christmas just over, New Year coming...!

Everybody just get their PMR result, choosing the streams they wanted to go now...

me? science stream, but got 0 interest in Bio, -5 interest in Account -_-

so, I opted for 4S3 and 4S1/2 ~"~

I got 7As, I was like wadafak, I thought I only got 6 or lesser, maybe my Sejarah & Chinese bla bla fails me again...

But surprisingly, finally I got A in Sejarah, just Chinese fails me again -.-

last time 6A 1B Chinese during UPSR, now PMR..duh..

Everybody got their new phone, got their present as their rewards, I got none :/

but that's fine

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24th Dec, Christmas eve, going to celebrate at the same place like last year...

but the fun, the joys were never the same anymore...

pretty pointless it's so called celebrate together, practically yeah, but truth is...separated..?

it's okay, we met new friends, we got our own fun, you wanna enjoy yourself, go ahead, don't waste our time like if you seriously wanna go out with us, then let's have fun together not like spread into what sub-groups...

Boy here, Girl there...

I don't know why, can't you all just be more considerate, tolerance bla bla...?

stop complaining all those shits please, duh...

stop holding that stupid old-school mindset of what fucking 80s ? "meh, he just wanna flirt" "meh, they just toying us around"

We all going to be 16, I don't know this is being more mature or being more fucking childish like 3 years old that always need people to keep an eye on you..

Anyway, went to countdown afterwards at Bukit Bintang area...

That was my 1st time experience (wtf you thinking? :D)

I think.. that was the time which "1 Malaysia" happens? lol

Never care who the hell are you, what nationality/race you are, just spray the hell of you, have fun..

Well, as expected, in such crowded place, robberies happen much...

Why LRT didn't extend operation hours for days like these which people will going to countdown until 12am & LRT was closed at 1130pm -_-!

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New Year is coming...

there's definitely I got lot of things that I want myself to change -_- but its like never worked :p

maybe I should be more hardworking? hmm... and maybe I should approach on you? :p

Well, I think I should, no jokes for SPM 2013...3 papers for Sejarah bla bla, hell ..

and I'm on the first batch for this shit, no reference, no last year questions, 0 clues...

What I did in holiday just playing Dotas, going out, working for few days -_-

recently found a Gym Rakyat, RM2 only for students o.o

it's located at Kompleks Sukan, just only available for students on Friday & Saturday...

been there with Dennis, Xin Hau... :p

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[DotA talk]

once again, Icefrog released new version during Christmas

First few days, I not quite like it though, I felt the heroes are over imbalanced, but then, don't give a fuck...

So imo, the most imba heroes are still SD & batrider :P

Roof, TB, Tuskarr in -cm pools now..

tuskarr could be some strong ganker but not can't do a shit in teamfight..

roof sux at laning, pretty good in teamfight though

TB strong carry throughout the game :9

been trying some heroes nowadays...

the buffs towards some items & the introduces of new items seems like magic carries arise once again... :9

Holiday~Christmas coming~

In this holiday..

I've been to DotA tournament, we lost though, but we as a team only played 2 -cm mode game before we participate this tournament, so we pretty much learned a lot...

Why is it not boring to play DotA for years is because every game is different, your play style required to change, facing different lineups, you have to counter with different ways...

A little mistake will make you pay

Anyway, I've also been to working as promoter for P1 4G (just last week :P) & waiter

3 days @ KLCC PC Fair

learned alot

做sales就是要不择手段*ahem* i mean 想尽办法来拉客

work for 3 days but I only successfully sold out a broadband plan ._.!

I also worked as waiter at Cheers Palace (opposite Leisure Mall)

第一天就要学什么招牌上菜仪式 =.=|

好才没有无聊人难为我 :p

Peoples who are working will advise you enjoy your study life

Working life is worse than study life, it's true :p

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Just now go Times Square, sungai wang & BB area find job

all require 16 at least ._.!!

every day at home watch dota replay else play dota, wanted to play -cm clan war more ._. but always got ppl no on9

PMR result coming out soon...

if nobody post this on status, I even forgotten about PMR stuff lol

Science or Art stream? IDK :D

but most likely i think i would choose science stream :/

Christmas coming soon, any plan? :P

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Is this a chance? :/

life's complicated

well I'm not gonna update neither for the Melaka trip nor the iceskating day 1st..

I will just update recent things about me...

Either in life or dota. . .

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Life:

"Be proactive not reactive"

That day I read a book in Popular bookshop at Sunway there after having dinner with buddies, I not really remember the title but it something like this...<7 Habits of Teenager should have> ?

but well idk...just 7 habits...

eventhough I didn't finish read the book, I just read it like less than an hour...

but I learnt a lot from that...

for me, most notable would be that "be proactive not reactive"

What's that?

-You will never escape from criticizing, comparison, harassing, bashing or just some sort of that that gotta makes you upset, rage bla bla...

How will you react?

Be reactive- He flames me first, I gotta flame the fuck out of him back!

Be proactive- He flames you doesn't mean you should do what's naturally you need to react----flame him back. No, as you know that won't help but just causing endless chaotic. Maybe you could had do something more productive at the mean time?

I mean don't let such stupid criticizes affect you easily, do what you have to, but not something stupid..

Quarrel is not gonna help

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DotA:

It so does in DotA

"oh you noob, look at your items bla bla bla"
*Yes! I'm a tiny! time for revenge & tosses that flamer to the horde of your enemy team*

great, you just feeding enemy team more

instead you should had been realizing...

Oh maybe he's right, I should had bla bla bla...

even he's wrong, just ignore him or tell him kindly & explains not doing some betrayal moves, that just dumb

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We were close

We are worse than acquaintances

I think you were once my very very close friend to me

You were quite nice and you were really different...

I don't know where I got the nerve & started trying to get you

but things doesn't seems ended well

even until now...

yes, I'm stupid, that was a dumb move

I had even pm-ed you whether can we still be just friends,

and you never replied,

as things seems so awkward, I decided to remove you from buddy then...

recently, I think I should had retrieved back this friendship, at least, it shouldn't had been worse than acquaintances...

that day, it really proved everything that is really had gone worse than acquaintances

You were helpless, I was thought of giving a hand, but well, since you were totally ignoring me, then I just get my ass off..

What can I react when there's her, somebody that worse than acquaintances talking with all your close, good friends...

I chose just to shut the fuck myself then

I really had nothing to say when she's around, idk, not saying that I hate her or wut...

I looked at you, I waved at you, I greeted "bye bye"

but you just changed your gaze to somewhere else, totally ignoring me...

conclusion:

in the net, without seeing face to face, you ignored

in real, face to face, you ignored either

nothing I can do then...

I think it's really pointless to retrieve it back, so well, move on...

anyway, I'd learnt a lot of my mistakes from her...

but oh well, can't change the facts anymore...

Worse than acquaintances

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Today I saw all the quarrels going around in the DotA group,

Leon removed the post afterwards

I know what mistakes I'd done, I'm not a real good player, I'm over aggressive

But if you really wanted to join, you just tell, I would give you my slot if you really were a better one since you would surely have more experience with Leon & they all, but there's no point of playing hints & offensing each other

I'm not trying to defend myself or what, I'm just saying if you really a better one, why the hell he picked me instead of you?

considering he's your schoolmate & definitely could work it out much better in terms of coordination, right?

Every day, I spent hours on watching replay, analyse each pick/ban choices, researching on the mechanism...

because I wanna try to help Leon out on drafting those shits in case he left out something & end up doing a wrong decision

Still, I'm practicing for what I can to give my team more advantage

I practicing jungling so that I could give my team more solo lane & level advantages

I practicing supports because you guys had better skills & patience in farming, last hitting

I not getting a single fucking creep score because I know who need it more than me, so you think I really meant to feed?

I mean feeding? what the hell? I threw everything that I got & I think that what a support, caster should do, doesn't it ?

Are you gonna rice farming VS in the jungle for a mekansm? really?

Idk wth you criticizing me, man

I think if you really concern about how much this team meant to you, then you should had giving advices, teaching me

not giving the team more trouble

you knew how much the time you wasted for the quarrels? that would almost cost for a game & short discussions

I respect you, I never knew you were holding a grudge on me or something

Anyway, my tournament will be on 5th & 6th November...

@ SMKSBS

its pretty soon but training will still be an issue to us

it's hardly to gather all 5 of us playing together

even just few of us playing together will not much helping

most of the time, the game will be screwed up by some other stranger pub players

I thought of training with AI, but that's work on training last hit which I don't need, I'm supporter -_-"

Oh well, I think I should stop typing my dota shits now before it getting rid of you all

lols

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Enjoy the holidays

Don't care about the PMR Result, don't need to bother about checking the marks now

Just wait for the result slip instead & now have fun :3

feel good after releasing all my shit feelings out -_-

PMR-trip-DotA tournament?

I keep silence doesn't mean I'm emo or some sort of that shiats

I just trying to concentrate doing my works, doing my revisions...

If you finished your works, or you don't feel you need to do so...

at least, think of the others... :/

it's really annoying & giving me a hard time in Chinese block teaching...

I really can't think & do...

(I didn't mean to mention who by specifically)

Come on, it's PMR around the corner... :|

After few months, I still feel like...er..idk..

I would like to stay @ B class better...

A class is nutz & much noisy :X

oh well, 3 days left...

don't be too stress, pushing yourself too hard doesn't make things better either ..

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I thought all the plan were planned well fine after PMR

13 14 trip, then 15 16 go DotA tournament

but ....

who knows...

trip is on 14-15

which is directly clash on the 1st day tournament :/

so me & dd can't make it...

now having a trouble finding replacements...

sigh :|

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oh well...

after PMR, find part-time job :D

and another thing to think of is...

science stream or art stream or wut?!

I had already thought of what I wanted...

IT stuffs...

but...

science streams seems like...err...nthg related & I hate bio -.-

oh wai...PMR haven't over yet :/

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2 times liao

ur bday

oso can't help u celebrate :/

next time & next time & next time.?

:p