Realize

sometimes I was so pissed off
there has been times that I felt like wanna transfer school to somewhere else
but I don't think that will displace his existence anyway

peoples just don't get me and randomly walk up to me, telling me why are you silenced in a group of people talking stuffs and bla bla
First, I don't have interest on their topic
but primarily, it's just that I don't feel like talking to him

I was trying to figure out what define true friends
well, that would be ones that aren't like him
ones that is prioritizing one's own self
disgrace ones while boasting his own dignity

signs of despair ? mmm..
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it has been some time that I got robbed at 1 Shamelin
the consequence of that misery incident still cripples me
the nature of fear towards stranger starts to grow inside me
I tend to start to be alert, or even run away from strangers that getting near me ._.
aiks

I still felt guilty for DD's lost ._.

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2 weeks of holiday, trying to get part-time
or shall I do some revision
freaking biology & history ._.

so far no fails for mid year exam rite? oh yessh :D
and..
i don't want to switch class !! ._.
not lansi

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start to find it hard to find somebody to trust
aiks

mid year exam coming soon, need to finish all my homeworks & start doing revision
but at the mean time, need to participate DotA 2 tournaments, each a week
somehow need to practice as well as coaching for another sub-group for upcoming SMM tournament
its an international event, everybody is showing effort, discovering new strategy, pairing up new combos...

glad to play with a team that we share the same interest, the courage & passion to the game :D
I feel lucky to meet you all


i want to get a part-time job, desperately need money :/

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dont want to ask for more
but at least i want how it was be. . .

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don't know how to react, what to do..

mind just gone blank, i wished to talk to u..

but my mind reminds me, things weren't the same anymore..

how pathetic..

never expected such thing could happen..

idk..

i think i nid to find something to focus on..SMM tournament, studies..

if i just keep lingering around, it couldnt change much either..

sigh

sometimes when i just wanna express myself a little more, seems like it venture too far, even it wasnt meant to be like that, they somehow sense something fishy ._.

i just wanna find someone to talk, is that such an odd thing? fine..

just

wanna

punch them right on the face

for

those

who

talk nonsense crap

I'm not in the right mood to talk, how long you'd know me, you still can't get it?

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you're still my bro

don't think too much

i'm cool with it

Persistent?

don't have much free time to blog nowadays

form 4 ain't no joke, barely keeping up myself on the track ._.

I kinda afraid that I would being drop down to 4s3 because I might not attending for the exams :O

going to Korea+HK soon :X

i wanna share my trip @ china bla bla..but meh..really busy

recently, i even applied some part-time job, cashier @ Internet cafe, easy job. Play & get pay lol. and also might have some time for me to do my school stuff lol, hopefully the time shifts are flexible & they accept me !!

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recently, there's really too much thing happened around me

no matter in life or in game, it just things really frustrating me, but I didn't give up

PERSISTENT

something that I have? ha

What I believe is

since you have started it, then make it till the end whether it's going to be failed or succeeded. It's pure waste of time & it's stupid to give up half way, you never know if there's a turning point or not, don't be despair.

the guys don't even believe that we had won 6 games in a row, 2-3 of the games, they were forcing me to concede but I rejected again & again, after 10-20minutes, opponent conceded, I'm glad for that.

Sometimes when being persistent don't even pay off at all, it really makes me feel desperate & emo ._.

Why is it so hard just to buy a present ._.

I'd get into some "weird" gift shop, it's really awkward, label your shop properly la deng, there's so many kids around, aneh

I'd roamed 6-7 CC, none of them have colour-printing service, wth

then I realized just need to save the photo on pendrive bla bla

Sunday, went to KL Sentral, it's closed, hell, so I only able to give her after her birthday is over =_=

Monday, went again, rules changed, unable to put photos of celebrities on the new TnG photocard liao ._.

then I just rushed to buy a DOMO ._.

eh, please appreciate the domo leh, lol, susahnya :9

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Rejecting won't be that hurtful compare to being shun, please understand that, don't be afraid or being surprised ._.!

That feeling is really awkward & depressing.

what I wished for, it will always come true, but in an opposite way...

just few more weeks to go..

but it doesn't matter anymore...

just wait again

Christmas just over, New Year coming...!

Everybody just get their PMR result, choosing the streams they wanted to go now...

me? science stream, but got 0 interest in Bio, -5 interest in Account -_-

so, I opted for 4S3 and 4S1/2 ~"~

I got 7As, I was like wadafak, I thought I only got 6 or lesser, maybe my Sejarah & Chinese bla bla fails me again...

But surprisingly, finally I got A in Sejarah, just Chinese fails me again -.-

last time 6A 1B Chinese during UPSR, now PMR..duh..

Everybody got their new phone, got their present as their rewards, I got none :/

but that's fine

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24th Dec, Christmas eve, going to celebrate at the same place like last year...

but the fun, the joys were never the same anymore...

pretty pointless it's so called celebrate together, practically yeah, but truth is...separated..?

it's okay, we met new friends, we got our own fun, you wanna enjoy yourself, go ahead, don't waste our time like if you seriously wanna go out with us, then let's have fun together not like spread into what sub-groups...

Boy here, Girl there...

I don't know why, can't you all just be more considerate, tolerance bla bla...?

stop complaining all those shits please, duh...

stop holding that stupid old-school mindset of what fucking 80s ? "meh, he just wanna flirt" "meh, they just toying us around"

We all going to be 16, I don't know this is being more mature or being more fucking childish like 3 years old that always need people to keep an eye on you..

Anyway, went to countdown afterwards at Bukit Bintang area...

That was my 1st time experience (wtf you thinking? :D)

I think.. that was the time which "1 Malaysia" happens? lol

Never care who the hell are you, what nationality/race you are, just spray the hell of you, have fun..

Well, as expected, in such crowded place, robberies happen much...

Why LRT didn't extend operation hours for days like these which people will going to countdown until 12am & LRT was closed at 1130pm -_-!

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New Year is coming...

there's definitely I got lot of things that I want myself to change -_- but its like never worked :p

maybe I should be more hardworking? hmm... and maybe I should approach on you? :p

Well, I think I should, no jokes for SPM 2013...3 papers for Sejarah bla bla, hell ..

and I'm on the first batch for this shit, no reference, no last year questions, 0 clues...

What I did in holiday just playing Dotas, going out, working for few days -_-

recently found a Gym Rakyat, RM2 only for students o.o

it's located at Kompleks Sukan, just only available for students on Friday & Saturday...

been there with Dennis, Xin Hau... :p

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[DotA talk]

once again, Icefrog released new version during Christmas

First few days, I not quite like it though, I felt the heroes are over imbalanced, but then, don't give a fuck...

So imo, the most imba heroes are still SD & batrider :P

Roof, TB, Tuskarr in -cm pools now..

tuskarr could be some strong ganker but not can't do a shit in teamfight..

roof sux at laning, pretty good in teamfight though

TB strong carry throughout the game :9

been trying some heroes nowadays...

the buffs towards some items & the introduces of new items seems like magic carries arise once again... :9

Holiday~Christmas coming~

In this holiday..

I've been to DotA tournament, we lost though, but we as a team only played 2 -cm mode game before we participate this tournament, so we pretty much learned a lot...

Why is it not boring to play DotA for years is because every game is different, your play style required to change, facing different lineups, you have to counter with different ways...

A little mistake will make you pay

Anyway, I've also been to working as promoter for P1 4G (just last week :P) & waiter

3 days @ KLCC PC Fair

learned alot

做sales就是要不择手段*ahem* i mean 想尽办法来拉客

work for 3 days but I only successfully sold out a broadband plan ._.!

I also worked as waiter at Cheers Palace (opposite Leisure Mall)

第一天就要学什么招牌上菜仪式 =.=|

好才没有无聊人难为我 :p

Peoples who are working will advise you enjoy your study life

Working life is worse than study life, it's true :p

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Just now go Times Square, sungai wang & BB area find job

all require 16 at least ._.!!

every day at home watch dota replay else play dota, wanted to play -cm clan war more ._. but always got ppl no on9

PMR result coming out soon...

if nobody post this on status, I even forgotten about PMR stuff lol

Science or Art stream? IDK :D

but most likely i think i would choose science stream :/

Christmas coming soon, any plan? :P

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Is this a chance? :/