beyond my threshold

Loneliness
It was what I've grown accustomed to
I can live with it but never have liked it
Distaste to be left out
Distaste to be unnoticeable

It is not unusual to be left out
I don't always demand, nut when I do, I mean it.

I wish I was more selfish
I wish I was more bad tempered
I wish I was more impulsive

Adapting these characters to gain concern is definitely my last resort
Yes
I am desperate

It never had worked anyways


I never was the main show
It wouldn't matter.

To forget pain, one has to wallow in something: gaming and liquors